Monday, January 27, 2014


When I worship I literally feel like I'm below a sheet of glass. Like, I'm stuck. I'm at a wall. I feel like I'm RIGHT on the edge. When I was worshiping last night I felt a fire in my stomach, but it didn't spread. I feel this tension in my whole body though. I feel like I'm right at the edge. I'm RIGHT THERE. Temptation is hitting me hard, but this time with the strength of JESUS I will overcome!!!

I'm so excited. It's kind of hard to breathe right now!!!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Voices of Fear

Three in the morning, sleeping to do, barely focused on God all day. Do you know how hard it is to focus on somebody you can't feel? Is God with me? Yes. I know he is. I know I know I know. But It doesn't feel like it. It doesn't feel like it at all. I sure can feel fear though. Fear that's just.. Hard to explain. And I never really want to, because that means that.. I have to think about it. I don't know what to do. I don't feel like I can really talk to anybody, but I think I will tomorrow. I know without a doubt God is real, this isn't a post of doubt. I just feel so helpless right now.